I want someone to save me
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here
Yeah, I think that is part of me. I don't like to be here but I am too afraid to go by myself. I don't have enough courage so I am sitting here waiting for someone to save me. I don't care who it is. I don't care where it is. As long as it is not here it's fine.
I want to leave. I want to go to a place where no one know me. A place that I could live a normal life. I am tired following all the instructions, all the rules, and I am tired to do something that I didn't want! I will waiting here. Wait for someone to take me out of here. I was so helpless, I couldn't go by myself. I was just sitting here accepting my fate. Because everything have been decided for me.
But now I realize. I was being too selfish. I didn't look around, I didn't see people around me. They were kind to me, they put their hope to me, but I am looking a way to betray they hope. I don't want to be here, that is true. But in same time I don't wanna betray they hope. I was too busy searching an easy way out that I didn't realize peoples feeling. That was the time I feeling apart from you. I never see what you feel. You are always by my side. You give me the power so I can stand up once again. You are the one I can depends on. Because you always here. It never occur to me that you were feeling that way. I am sorry.
I know that I couldn't always depends on you. When I see everyone was giving their best, I can't just sit down here waiting for someone safe me. I can't just sit here and look everyone doing their best and I doing nothing. If I want to go then I have to make it myself because it is my decision. I won't look for an easy way out anymore. If I want fly then I will have my wings to be grown.
I know I am silly. By the passing time, I know that what I want is not leaving. I like this place, I love everybody here. I just didn't like the way they treat me. It's like everything has been decided for me. I want to decided which path I'll took for my life. And I decided not to leave.
I want to leave. I want to go to a place where no one know me. A place that I could live a normal life. I am tired following all the instructions, all the rules, and I am tired to do something that I didn't want! I will waiting here. Wait for someone to take me out of here. I was so helpless, I couldn't go by myself. I was just sitting here accepting my fate. Because everything have been decided for me.
But now I realize. I was being too selfish. I didn't look around, I didn't see people around me. They were kind to me, they put their hope to me, but I am looking a way to betray they hope. I don't want to be here, that is true. But in same time I don't wanna betray they hope. I was too busy searching an easy way out that I didn't realize peoples feeling. That was the time I feeling apart from you. I never see what you feel. You are always by my side. You give me the power so I can stand up once again. You are the one I can depends on. Because you always here. It never occur to me that you were feeling that way. I am sorry.
I know that I couldn't always depends on you. When I see everyone was giving their best, I can't just sit down here waiting for someone safe me. I can't just sit here and look everyone doing their best and I doing nothing. If I want to go then I have to make it myself because it is my decision. I won't look for an easy way out anymore. If I want fly then I will have my wings to be grown.
I know I am silly. By the passing time, I know that what I want is not leaving. I like this place, I love everybody here. I just didn't like the way they treat me. It's like everything has been decided for me. I want to decided which path I'll took for my life. And I decided not to leave.
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