Jealousy

The situation never right. How should I supposed to meet you now? Every here and now I could never been better. Each time I see your wings spreads. Each time I see you floating. Can I ever catch you? Deep in my heart I want you to depends on me. I want to become a place where you can landing. Take a rest. But it is me who depends on you. I don't know what should I do if you weren't there.

I was so jealous of you. You are the one everybody talking about. You have everything that I didn't have. When I am with you I feel so happy and sad in a same time. Can you understand why? I am happy because you was there, because you are my precious friend. But it feels sad that no one look at me. If I compared to you... I am nothing.

This feeling, I hate it so much. Then I start thinking maybe I should look for what best for me. And without realize, we were apart. I became too selfish that I ignore what you feel. I just going on and on and on. I feel so sorry. This feeling just like wall. I couldn't get closed to you. And the walls keep grow. I am so sorry. What kind of friend am I?

That's why I am here now. I will there with you. Not because I want you to need me but because you are my precious friend. I want to protect this feeling. I know I am not that smart, I have many weaknesses. But if you were there I can grow as strong as I need. That's why I'll always by your side.

This feeling. It was part of me. Even if I denied it, it was exist. It exist deep in my heart. I want you to rely on me. I want to become stronger. But now, I have this feeling. I want to by your side, that's all. Protecting what important to me. And protect what important for others.